Jesus is no longer the suffering Servant sent by Father God to save us from ourselves and to give us a hope and a future (eternal life). Jesus gave His life freely because God loves us so much and He hated seeing the sufferings going on in this World that He wanted to free us of this bondage that we are born into .
If you have lived outside the Kingdom Of God and want to enter you have to enter by God’s ways, and no use praying for things unless its for repentance and acceptance of Jesus as Lord. God’s way is one of complete surrender of your life to Him (don’t worry this is a process) and a turning way from the World’s way of doing things, ie do want you want.
even as Christians we don’t realise how great or the immenseness of God, i think if we tried to understand it we would overload our brains. This whole universe didn’t just happen or on a smaller scale this earth, He created everything by Faith and His Word , through Jesus and the Holy Spirit.